So much to be thinking and writing about. So much to organize in my life. Sometimes I don’t even know where to start. Wondering where I have come this year…how have I evolved. .
School is good for the most part. Yearbook is going to be killer, I know. Yet I worry about the inevitable mistakes. Need to read and reread. Patience and perserverence. This blog is good, too, yet I am ambivalent about it. A great resource, storehouse of the things that interest me. But to what end? For me? Maybe, but I struggle with the disorganization, or the inability to organize it. The need for many, many logs at once. And I want them now…same old lack of patience issues. Implementation. Know what I want, can see it working. But the set up would take too long, just like learning the guitar, or framing, or whatever. Maybe that could be my practice for 02, one of my goals. To get it set up. Lord knows I should have a lot of time to experiment from April on. Focus on that? And keep it readable? Private log fro private thoughts. Public log for professional/commentary. Make it public? Again, steal from those who do it well…Rebecca. Should flow chart her site. Should just allow mine to develop as it will…Zen about it…do more of this. Get in the habit of dumping. Get back to spirit.
Some things I’d like to do next year: 1. Play more with my kids, yell less…Priority #1. I will have time for the other stuff, but they will never be this again. Don’t waste it. Learn to find joy in it. Love them more peacefully. 2. Find God…made some inroads this year, though not much. Do more. Do less. Go to church more. Be active. Find God in simple gestures. Done for others. 3. Do more for others. Must do this with kids. After 9/11, clearly the world is a different place and needs action from every one of us. Find habitat or others that need our help and do something. 4. Write, create, learn…weblogs have me juiced…go with it. Make a plan. Work on it. Focus and make it happen. Figure out a way to make it work for me. It can. It will if I demand it. 5. Perservere. 6. Breathe fresh air. Move body more. 7. Read more, watch less. Always. 8. Create…guitar, write, art, whatever. 9.